1.27.2016

Role Call: Sierra Boggess!!

Hello!!

If this isn't your first time reading my blog, you probably know I'm a huge fan of Broadway actress Sierra Boggess.

Like, oh my gosh.

She is craaaazy pretty.

Damn, girl.

But aside from being incredibly beautiful, she's massively talented. She's been on several Broadway productions, among them are her most noted performances in The Little Mermaid (I believe she's THE original Broadway Ariel) and 25th Anniversary Performance of The Phantom of the Opera (where I fell in love).

This 25th Anniversary of the Phantom of the Opera is a f* must-watch. SWEAR TO GOD
Okay there so I love her mehehe.

To love her more, or just get an idea which musicals you might find her in, check out this video:

"Keep casting me!"

Happy watching! <3 p="">

12.29.2015

12 Things I Needed To Know To Survive My First Job I Learned While Cutting the Frozen Leftover Christmas Ham for the First Time

1. They said you couldn't do it if you didn't know where to begin. They're wrong. You can start anywhere you want. From there you have a choice to keep going to change places if you think that's what's best.

2. Not knowing how to do it is not an excuse.

3. You can have all the best tools and still do it poorly.

4. It's ugly. It's messy. It seems hopeless. Someone has to do it, so suck it up.

5. If it's not cutting nicely there, cut somewhere else.

6. Cut too small, it won't feel like you're eating ham. Cut too big and it won't fit in the tupper ware.

7. Your hands are going to hurt, especially if you've done a lot. Don't let that stop you; you're almost there.

8. You will realize you want to see how this is done by other people even after you yourself have done it. Go ahead, learn, even if you already should have. Better late than never.

9. Of course your mom can do a better job. Of course other people can do a better job. But that's just because they've done this before.

10. It's okay to fail as long as you're going to do better next time. Don't be too hard on yourself; everyone's first looks like scrap.

11. However, if you've actually done well, even just the little pieces, stop and pat yourself on the back. It's fun, it's happy, and it's a really nice way to relax your tired hands.

12. Remember, this is the best way to really learn.

11.22.2015

Anxiety is the real monster

My parents never really taught me to fear ghosts or monsters. My dad, in particular, have always said that our fear of anything results from not knowing (I've written about this before, you may read it here) or understanding. That, if I happen to see a ghost or monster, I should be curious and inspect it and try to understand. I grew up with a mission to stop and analyze almost everything I have the potential to fear.

"Social Anxiety" by Lightisfar on deviantart.com

Recently, I've had to deal with a lot of pressure. I've been in this job, my first actual job, for a few weeks now, and the pressure is starting to dawn on me. I've met with a lot of other different types and amounts of pressure in my 20 years, but it's different out here in the “real world” simply because it's not just me who's involved. My work now affects a lot of other people in ways that are different from when I was in college or some other setting.

I don't easily crack under pressure. I'd like to think I still have a long way to go before I do. Everyone who knows me and sees me do anything knows this. If there's anything I'm consistent with, it's bullshitting my way out of things and keeping my head together. I'm anxious a lot of times, but almost never about my work. I'm fairly confident about myself and whatever I'm doing.

Which is why it's getting really tough to wrap my head around why I feel so anxious about this job. Well, according to Freud anyway, neurotic anxiety is apprehension to unknown danger. But that's the thing-- I already know why the job is pressuring, and I already have a pretty good picture in my head describing it, so it's not that really “unknown”.


So why am I still anxious? I know there's a pretty good chance I'll never find out; on the other hand, I'd really like to bet that I'm going to find out. I guess I just need a little more time.

11.07.2015

Cool Ya Head

I'd like to share with you my Cool Ya Head playlist, basically the list of songs I play on speakers when I'm pissed in general (I have different playlists for other specific moods lol). This list has songs with a mix of themes such as anger, betrayal, denial, hopelessness, as well as hope, positivity, belongingness, and just the general feel that bands are there for you. Ya know, the whole emo package.

Shuffle and loop this playlist for full effect.

  1. Can't Fight Against The Youth - Panic! At The Disco



  2. Mad Sounds - Arctic Monkeys



  3. Kill All Your Friends - My Chemical Romance



  4. 7 Minutes in Heaven (Atavan Halen) Fall Out Boy



  5. The Kids Aren't Alright - Fall Out Boy



  6. Bulletproof Heart My Chemical Romance



  7. That Green Gentleman - Panic! At The Disco


  8. Little Lion Man (Punk Goes Pop 4) - Tonight Alive



  9. Dude, What is a Land Pirate - The Wonder Years



  10. Coffee Shop Soundtrack All Time Low



  11. I Am Bulletproof Black Veil Brides



  12. Break Out! Break Out! All Time Low


Feel free to add/remove tracks from this playlist according to your needs. Lol.

I highly recommend that you have a Cool Ya Head playlist, with whatever genre you may be into. It's a great way to vent, especially when you can't find anyone to bother with your rants. Plus, if done properly, you could condition yourself to feeling good after listening to your playlist.

Happy listening!


xos



10.27.2015

I wasn't trying to steal your man


I wasn't trying to steal your man
the day you saw me with him.
He was so in love, if one could miss it
His eyes were just so mad;
From a distance you could feel
he had butterflies and a dizzy cloud of stars on his beautiful head.

I wasn't trying to steal your man.
He was so in love with you.
Even if I wanted to,
There was just no way, anyway.
And every time he smiled
You just knew it was because he was with you.

I wasn't trying to steal your man.
I could tell you wore your favorite perfume today,
I could smell it off his jacket.
The scent was strong,
But not as strong as I am.

I miss you.

I wasn't trying to steal your man.
I was trying to tell him to stay in love with you,

because I made the mistake of letting go.

10.05.2015

Sometimes, when I argue, I feel like crying. There were even times that I actually teared up while arguing. Not because I was winning or losing or the subject was too emotional, but because I'm just so overwhelmed, blown away, by how stupid the other person's argument is and how hopeless his assumptions are.

10.02.2015


"When you're visited by a familiar feeling, embrace it; not all people get to experience life twice."

 A new phase of my life begins! I didn't expect it'd come sooner, but it did. Good luck to me!

PS. I've been writing a few makeup reviews and tutorials, I hope to have time soon to upload them. Yay!