I lost my fear of falling

Hi. I just wanted to tell you some things I have been dying to let you know. I know it's really stupid, but I believe that things like these can only be stupid if you look at it that way. So yun.

I think it's absurd, really, but i wanted you to know that somehow the idea of me being what you're wishing for crossed my insane little mind lots of times. I'm sorry for assuming things, but that is how I feel when I'm with you. The things you do are beautiful, too beautiful that it hurts because they are not of the reasons i want. I know I'm being too selfish and I'm sorry. I just can't believe I'm in a situation where I don't have an option but to lose and get hurt. Once again, I don't blame you. I can't.

Dude, you are not the nicest guy on the planet. You talk to me like I'm not a girl. You can be really nice, but I'm glad I got a glimpse of your bad guy side. You're not the cutest either. Sure, we think and act almost alike, but man, that's still no reason for me to fall. I don't know why I'm writing about you. I already assumed you don't care.

I just realized everything's simply absurd. And that I lost my fear of falling. And that I love you.